Monday, March 10, 2008

Dawn in stone


Wanted to define a token for a painful morning that became a happy day, so this is the result, one dawn carved in stone... somehow.






Time! on whose arbitrary wing
The varying hours must flag or fly,
Whose tardy winter, fleeting spring,
But drag or drive us on to die—
Hail thou! who on my birth bestowed
Those boons to all that know thee known;
Yet better I sustain thy load,
For now I bear the weight alone.
I would not one fond heart should share
The bitter moments thou hast given;
And pardon thee—since thou couldst spare
All that I loved, to peace or Heaven.
To them be joy or rest—on me
Thy future ills shall press in vain;
I nothing owe but years to thee,
A debt already paid in pain.
Yet even that pain was some relief;
It felt, but still forgot thy power:
The active agony of grief
Retards, but never counts the hour.
In joy I've sighed to think thy flight
Would soon subside from swift to slow;
Thy cloud could overcast the light,
But could not add a night to Woe;
For then, however drear and dark,
My soul was suited to thy sky;
One star alone shot forth a spark
To prove thee—not Eternity.
That beam hath sunk—and now thou art
A blank—a thing to count and curse
Through each dull tedious trifling part,
Which all regret, yet all rehearse.
One scene even thou canst not deform—
The limit of thy sloth or speed
When future wanderers bear the storm
Which we shall sleep too sound to heed.
And I can smile to think how weak
Thine efforts shortly shall be shown,
When all the vengeance thou canst wreak
Must fall upon—a nameless stone.


Lord Byron, "To time" (Out of the seventh edition of Childe Harold's Pilgrimage).

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Capitulum of light

Has been raining all day long, and how I miss the spring light we've had on this last two weeks of spring-like weather in summer...



A light exists in spring
Not present on the year
At any other period.
When March is scarcely here

A color stands abroad
On solitary hills
That science cannot overtake,
But human naturefeels.

It waits upon the lawn;
It shows the furthest tree
Upon the furthest slope we know;
It almost speaks to me.

Then, as horizons step,
Or noons report away,
Without the formula of sound,
It passes, and we stay:

A quality of loss
Affecting our content,
As trade had suddenly encroached
Upon a sacrament.

Emily Dickinson, #812.

Saturday, March 08, 2008

Abstract Nº47

We know the halls of the eye like welcome visitors, but we live in our mouth.

Malcolm de Chazal, "Sens Plastique".

Friday, March 07, 2008

Wild flower II



Some have won a wild delight,
By daring wilder sorrow;
Could I gain thy love to-night,
I'd hazard death to-morrow.

Could the battle-struggle earn
One kind glance from thine eye,
How this withering heart would burn,
The heady fight to try !

Welcome nights of broken sleep,
And days of carnage cold,
Could I deem that thou wouldst weep
To hear my perils told.

Tell me, if with wandering bands
I roam full far away,
Wilt thou, to those distant lands,
In spirit ever stray ?

Wild, long, a trumpet sounds afar;
Bid me­bid me go
Where Seik and Briton meet in war,
On Indian Sutlej's flow.

Blood has dyed the Sutlej's waves
With scarlet stain, I know;
Indus' borders yawn with graves,
Yet, command me go !

Though rank and high the holocaust
Of nations, steams to heaven,
Glad I'd join the death-doomed host,
Were but the mandate given.

Passion's strength should nerve my arm,
Its ardour stir my life,
Till human force to that dread charm
Should yield and sink in wild alarm,
Like trees to tempest-strife.

If, hot from war, I seek thy love,
Darest thou turn aside ?
Darest thou, then, my fire reprove,
By scorn, and maddening pride ?

No­my will shall yet control
Thy will, so high and free,
And love shall tame that haughty soul­
Yes­tenderest love for me.

I'll read my triumph in thine eyes,
Behold, and prove the change;
Then leave, perchance, my noble prize,
Once more in arms to range.

I'd die when all the foam is up,
The bright wine sparkling high;
Nor wait till in the exhausted cup
Life's dull dregs only lie.

Then Love thus crowned with sweet reward,
Hope blest with fulness large,
I'd mount the saddle, draw the sword,
And perish in the charge !

Charlotte Brönte, "Passion".

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Wild flower

For CC.

This flower-like shape seems to belong to one sort of a wild environment (like the thousand surronding voices of Nature, in the poem), that turns it into a wild flower, I guess.



[...]
O bloom! all joy is thine,
All loves around thee shine;
The thousand hearts of Nature throb for thee,
Her thousand voices praise thee tenderly.

O bloom of purest glory,
Flower of love's gentlest story,
Forever keep thy petals fresh and fair,
Forever send thy sweetness down the air!
[...]

Maurice Thompson, "To a wild flower".

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Abstract Nº46

Funny quotes to my mind:

We are keepers of the peace, not soldiers.

Mace Windu, character of the movie Star Wars Episode II, Attack of the clones.


Be mindful of your feelings.

Mace Windu, on Star Wars Episode I, The Phantom Menace.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Abstract Nº45

One dream, from last night:

I was writing numbers on one accounting book, all them in red, I was dishevelled and writing with fury, and doing very ironic and aggressive remarks on the people responsable of the numbers in red. At some moment my boss called me to his office, I walked after him, making sarcastic remarks directly at him, and he introduced me to some other guy, who I insulted while doing normal stuff, like shaking his hand, but my right hand detached from my forearm, and it remained in his hand; I absolutely panicked, and walked back in horror, screaming, they didn't seemed surprised, and my boss catched my forearm when I was falling to the floor in panic, my forearm remained in his hand too, as I tried to scream and crawl away, but I kicked one of his foot and one of my legs detached from my body too, soon after, a person took it away with her, another woman took my left arm, some other my torso, everyone took something away, and my head remained on the floor, with my mouth in position of a scream, my boss took it under his arm, walked to his office, accidentally hitted my face against his door, and I woke up.

Monday, March 03, 2008

Abstract Nº44



As if you could kill time without injuring eternity.

The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation. From the desperate city you go into the desperate country, and have to console yourself with the bravery of minks and muskrats. A stereotyped but unconscious despair is concealed even under what are called the games and amusements of mankind. There is no play in them, for this comes after work. But it is a characteristic of wisdom not to do desperate things.

When we consider what, to use the words of the catechism, is the chief end of man, and what are the true necessaries and means of life, it appears as if men had deliberately chosen the common mode of living because they preferred it to any other. Yet they honestly think there is no choice left. But alert and healthy natures remember that the sun rose clear. It is never too late to give up our prejudices. No way of thinking or doing, however ancient, can be trusted without proof.

Henry David Thoreau, "Walden" (Chapter 1-A).

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Abstract Nº43

The real hero is always a hero by mistake; he dreams of being an honest coward like everybody else.

Umberto Eco, "Travels in Hyperreality".

Saturday, March 01, 2008

The colourful pole

The north pole, colourful pole. Would like to see one aurora borealis once. Fortunately, it looks portentous, nothing like this.



Now have I grown a sharpness and an edge
Unto my future nights, and I will cut
Sheer through the ebon gates that yet will shut
On every set of day; or as a sledge
Drawn over snowy plains; where not a hedge
Breaks this Aurora's dancing, nothing but
The one cold Esquimaux' unlikely hut
That swims in the broad moonlight! Lo, a wedge
Of the clean meteor hath been brightly driven
Right home into the fastness of the north!
Anon it quickeneth up into the heaven!
And I with it have clomb and spreaded forth
Upon the crisp and cooling atmosphere!
My soul is all abroad: I cannot find it here!

George MacDonald, "The Aurora Borealis".